After another visit to the doctor today, I feel that the end is finally in sight. The doctor checked me and, though I am not dilated, I am pretty well effaced. He could feel the baby's head and predicted that as soon as she moves her head directly over the cervix I will go into labor. He is pretty sure that it will happen sometime this week.
We had been hoping that she would hang on till Friday night so that David can focus on his test and do well Friday morning. We'll see if that happens. She may think that Thursday night sounds like the one she wants! However, we are pretty sure that she will add to our shmorgishbord of January birthdays!
This knowledge had left me a little more nervous and anxious! I think I am starting my nesting phase! I cleaned up the swing someone gave us today, did a load of laundry and got David to do the dishes. And I have a few more things I want to get done tomorrow. I am hoping that I can just do these couple things and then I will let myself rest. (Don't worry, I actually am still sleeping in and trying to take things easy as I get these things done.) I also want to go to the beach tomorrow. Maybe get the baby moving!
So, overall, we are very excited that Lydia will be joining us soon! It'll be nice to finally meet my little alien!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Any day now?
I find myself asking so often lately, "Is there really an end to all of this? Is there really a baby in there? Or do I just have a lifelong condition of a squirming alien inside of me?" I know that millions of women have gone before me and had these same types of feelings. But, seriously, shouldn't the baby come with a specific date and time that you will go into labor? Then I think I would feel like I have so much more purpose! Instead I find myself having a small contraction, looking at the clock and wondering if this could actually be it! And when another contraction doesn't come, I roll over disappointed.
Yesterday I went to see the doctor and ended up asking him if he could strip my membranes or do something to help get this baby going! He's a little nervous (and rightfully so) that if he tries to get it all moving before the baby's ready that I'll end up in a c-section. So, he compromised with me that if I came back on Friday and the NST machine showed that I was having contractions, then he would do it.
So, now I am anxiously hoping that the small contractions I have are enough.
Meanwhile, I feel like I am twiddling my thumbs. I've worked on several projects throughout the pregnancy and I just feel burned out of them lately. I could continue to work on mine and David's wedding album or do a couple of pages for Lydia's baby book. But, instead, I end up putting on a movie and working on my everlasting puzzle or just wanting to go to sleep. I went through a spirt when we first got back from Washington where I crazily organized everything in the baby's room and cleaned the house. And now, I just feel lazy. I have no signs of what they call "nesting". I almost wonder if I have a pre-postpartum depression or baby blues. I have no idea. But I do know that I really want to have this baby! I feel like when I do, not only will my body have a chance to recuperate from all this, but my many wakeups throughout the night will have a purpose other than a run to the toilet! Maybe that's it. I just don't feel like I have much of a purpose right now. Lydia, please...please come soon!
Yesterday I went to see the doctor and ended up asking him if he could strip my membranes or do something to help get this baby going! He's a little nervous (and rightfully so) that if he tries to get it all moving before the baby's ready that I'll end up in a c-section. So, he compromised with me that if I came back on Friday and the NST machine showed that I was having contractions, then he would do it.
So, now I am anxiously hoping that the small contractions I have are enough.
Meanwhile, I feel like I am twiddling my thumbs. I've worked on several projects throughout the pregnancy and I just feel burned out of them lately. I could continue to work on mine and David's wedding album or do a couple of pages for Lydia's baby book. But, instead, I end up putting on a movie and working on my everlasting puzzle or just wanting to go to sleep. I went through a spirt when we first got back from Washington where I crazily organized everything in the baby's room and cleaned the house. And now, I just feel lazy. I have no signs of what they call "nesting". I almost wonder if I have a pre-postpartum depression or baby blues. I have no idea. But I do know that I really want to have this baby! I feel like when I do, not only will my body have a chance to recuperate from all this, but my many wakeups throughout the night will have a purpose other than a run to the toilet! Maybe that's it. I just don't feel like I have much of a purpose right now. Lydia, please...please come soon!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
20 Day Eviction notice
So, I've just been catching up on Ciera's blog and came across this. Yeah, it's definitely how I feel! So, Lydia, this is your first letter from your mother! :)
Little Miss Lydia Dawn Dickinson:
I hereby issue 20 day notice for EVICTION. You will have 20 days in which you can either gather your belongings and promptly vacate the premises, or wait until the final day, after which, you will be physically removed from the property.
You are being evicted due to breech of contract and destruction of property. Expansions only to the FRONT of the house, within reasonable limits, were discussed.
Not only have these limits been exceeded, but additions to the back of the house were also made! Remodeling and gutting of the home was never approved, nor was changing the initial layout and base structure.
And due to property damage, there are now leaks in both the upper AND lower levels of the home. On top of which, the landlord has received numerous complaints about nightly disturbances.
After 20 days from this day that you don't comply with the notice will result in immediate and forceful removal at my discretion.
Thank you for your cooperation.
Love, Momma
So, despite wanting all the pains that come from being this pregnant to be over with, I really am very excited for Lydia to come still! I'm ready to see her little face and to cuddle with her! (I sure hope she's a snuggler!) We already love our little girl and wouldn't trade her for the world!
(For lots of pregnant pictures, see the December 09 pictures! I don't have all the pictures saved on David's computer, which is where I'm working from right now. So, I can't just put them in the post.)
Little Miss Lydia Dawn Dickinson:
I hereby issue 20 day notice for EVICTION. You will have 20 days in which you can either gather your belongings and promptly vacate the premises, or wait until the final day, after which, you will be physically removed from the property.
You are being evicted due to breech of contract and destruction of property. Expansions only to the FRONT of the house, within reasonable limits, were discussed.
Not only have these limits been exceeded, but additions to the back of the house were also made! Remodeling and gutting of the home was never approved, nor was changing the initial layout and base structure.
And due to property damage, there are now leaks in both the upper AND lower levels of the home. On top of which, the landlord has received numerous complaints about nightly disturbances.
After 20 days from this day that you don't comply with the notice will result in immediate and forceful removal at my discretion.
Thank you for your cooperation.
Love, Momma
So, despite wanting all the pains that come from being this pregnant to be over with, I really am very excited for Lydia to come still! I'm ready to see her little face and to cuddle with her! (I sure hope she's a snuggler!) We already love our little girl and wouldn't trade her for the world!
(For lots of pregnant pictures, see the December 09 pictures! I don't have all the pictures saved on David's computer, which is where I'm working from right now. So, I can't just put them in the post.)
Thursday, January 7, 2010
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